I loss her

Well it happen again i guess, i loose her i donno what to do or what to feel.. My feelings are normal but deep inside me is screwed. I know i was wrong to do such things but you didnt gave me a chance of explaining, all you care off is that i cheated on you. I didnt want to online with you is because i just want to calm myself down. I was sick i even go injurt but i dont want to tell you yet i got a surprise to tell you but all you did was delete me and throw me off your life just like that. Just because i chat with few girls and i sure know you will hacked to my account and i donno why to do a surprise for you is so hard. I was keeping something so important to tell you but not going online but all was haiz. This how it goes i guess. I wont blame you for anything i know its my fault and i hope you have a great life and take care. The surprise i just keep it for some other time. Perhaps trash it.