Eeeeeerie

erie whispers trapped beneath my pillow won't let me sleep your memories.I know you're in this room I'm sure I heard you sigh floating in-between where our worlds collide It scares the hell out of me and the end is all I can see......

I know the moment's near and there's nothing we can do look through a faithless eye are you afraid to die? It scares the hell out of me and the end is all I can see

Express

This blog will be the place where i can let go my depression. I dont want to make people worry bout me that im not ok and all. I feel i trouble so many. Even i look normal laugh smile happy. BUt im still hurt. Why did she did this i know its my fault but i never cheated on her. The worst thing you can just move on so fast less then few weeks is like showing you been in contact with this person for so long. I wonder who cheated who now. No matter what i do i never cheated on our love. I never did those things you did to me. I just accept it and be with you. I hear your explanation and all but towards me. I feel im being use to certain reason that only you know. It was really a grand closing. I rather you take a knife and just stab me to the heart then to make me suffer like this. When the time comes you will see those who u hurt haunt you.

boom!!

ok so i was handling the fryer all sudden the fire rush out due to sparks and oil and donno what that other solution. It just boom lucky avoid with my arm. but did left some scar. dam owh well take a look.

ThANK you

Would like to thx a friend of mine who made my day today.. thx for the msj..... Hope things be just find im still unstable but i hope i am able to pull it through.. Thx alot appreciate it

Im Loss

I guess i only use this blog to express my feelings besides people. Im soo loss i miss her badly i can feel it but my anger is so huge that i dont want to even think of her even a minute.. I tried msj her but all i got was a bang from her. I just dont understand why i do something like this is a big thing to count compare the things you did to me. The pain you cause me is much more compare to what i did. I admit i chat with girls but that doesnt mean i cheated on you.. I never once cheated on you. Since when you have the right to even go in my account. Its dam frustrating la seriously. I cant cope with my training and all arghh fuck. This end of the year is fucked up. Worst off all how the hell you know who i like. Haiz Stab in the back. I guess i just let it be la the more i be angry at it the more i start cursing. You think im bad and so be it. There is a saying that it takes a more evil person to see another bad person.......... What goes around comes around. I f what i did was wrong and i shall be punished but i fear those who accuse me of doing wrong all the best. You kena once and you should know.

I loss her

Well it happen again i guess, i loose her i donno what to do or what to feel.. My feelings are normal but deep inside me is screwed. I know i was wrong to do such things but you didnt gave me a chance of explaining, all you care off is that i cheated on you. I didnt want to online with you is because i just want to calm myself down. I was sick i even go injurt but i dont want to tell you yet i got a surprise to tell you but all you did was delete me and throw me off your life just like that. Just because i chat with few girls and i sure know you will hacked to my account and i donno why to do a surprise for you is so hard. I was keeping something so important to tell you but not going online but all was haiz. This how it goes i guess. I wont blame you for anything i know its my fault and i hope you have a great life and take care. The surprise i just keep it for some other time. Perhaps trash it.

sunday

Well today the last day of holiday, Tomorrow beginning of tense weak dam this shit. I have enough emotional probs in my life seriouly dont need another but hell with it in life you born alone, your life alone and last you die alone. No one be beside you actually but supporters. So today i woke up at 2pm. Then have my lunch and watch tv. After that did some workout online to get my notes and now online after this im off to bed. So practically its a boring day today life the same everything the same no diff. Hadi signing out...