I loss her

Well it happen again i guess, i loose her i donno what to do or what to feel.. My feelings are normal but deep inside me is screwed. I know i was wrong to do such things but you didnt gave me a chance of explaining, all you care off is that i cheated on you. I didnt want to online with you is because i just want to calm myself down. I was sick i even go injurt but i dont want to tell you yet i got a surprise to tell you but all you did was delete me and throw me off your life just like that. Just because i chat with few girls and i sure know you will hacked to my account and i donno why to do a surprise for you is so hard. I was keeping something so important to tell you but not going online but all was haiz. This how it goes i guess. I wont blame you for anything i know its my fault and i hope you have a great life and take care. The surprise i just keep it for some other time. Perhaps trash it.

sunday

Well today the last day of holiday, Tomorrow beginning of tense weak dam this shit. I have enough emotional probs in my life seriouly dont need another but hell with it in life you born alone, your life alone and last you die alone. No one be beside you actually but supporters. So today i woke up at 2pm. Then have my lunch and watch tv. After that did some workout online to get my notes and now online after this im off to bed. So practically its a boring day today life the same everything the same no diff. Hadi signing out...

Body torture.

Well today was the bom. slept at 3 am, woke up at 7, did some work out now rest awhile will continue in awhile. Today plan is normal i guess until later at the evening going to nadz house for raya and after that to rasta to meet some friends and also to fullfill my promise to raja. Promise him many times to go rasta but still never go yet haha. Nasib ar. Then get back home and work out again. Even rite now my muscle are like uhhh but hell with it. Want results go to the fullest. If you want to be the best, you got to change the world, and use this moment to be heard, for your time is now. Hadi signing out...

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Haven t been writing for some days now, but nvm i try to compile the whole time that i never update my blog... I can only remember up to last sunday it was the weirdest. Supposely i stayed at home and finish up my report which is due this week before the holidays but unfortunately something else happen instead. Something happen to my girl so i went to kota kemuning to comfort her down something that i failed to do before. After that i break-fast with my gf at some restaurant kinda had a great time with her.

On monday was an ok ok day for me. I donno why when my gf is out with her guy friends i get annoyed for no reason. Haizzzz not that i dont trust her but last nite i seriously need her and i though she be back early and another thing that bother me is that she has to come back early when she is with me but when she with her friends until 5am also there no prob. Hmm well i just accept it then. I left a week with her if not mistaken she flying off next week friday i donno how to cope with myself its easy for people to say move on, get a new one and all. Try if that person change you from something bad that you about to experience. You feel she or he is worth more then anything in this world. So far we dont talk much about london. I know she miss me but her friends comes first to her but i dont really care much. I put myself to a point where the more i worry the more tense i become. So might as well we just create some niec memory together and let her go there peacefully. If possible she only think of me a few percent. Let me become a part where i am just a pass by person.

N'aimez pas si vous à être fait mal

why?

Today is gone tomorrow arrive and making it total of 2 weeks left with you. To some people might just say, just move on and all but hey, I'm a sensitive guy and i love my relationship. Even-though sometimes we fight and all but its what relationship all about to have ups and downs. But shes going off soon to a place so far that i can visit her anymore like i used to. I remember the first time i saw her in taylor's old campus. We were both shy and all but i didnt know that my best friend will soon end up to be the girl that will change my life forever. I will always remember the sweet times that I'm with her. Sweet memory's can sometime be dark and scary memory's, life must still move on. I know when she goes that i might have a higher chance of loosing her but I'm prepared to. I wish her all the best and she will always be the person that had enter my heart and soul and change me forever. I'm so emoish and im proud of her cause she is able to control it. Her excitement of going there is more then the tough of she will leave me. But i just dont care anymore. I have to face it one day so might as well get ready. Nth much can be said just that hope that i can move on and focus on my future and career coz thats the only thing i will be after.

Bored

Well its been two days i think since my last update. Well so far nth much happen just being bored at home, want to go out practically no purpose of going out also not only that planing to save my cash for something big end of the year wohoooo. Hope it comes true i seriously have i hope on it. Tomorrow is Monday got my midterm exam haiz! haven't even study yet. Plus English homework that is still not done yet deng. But never mind we taylorians are good for doing things last minute hahaha. Plan for today i guess study abit, maybe few chats wit my friends and awaiting the time to break fast. So far so good i guess. Au revoir!!

Today

Haiz.. Today seriously screwed my English assessment but got change to re do back again. French was so hard that i don't freaking understand what the hell they are talking about. My gum is still the same hurting as always. Was worried bout my girl last nite but practically she wont know. Plus she been acting weird today, said that she is loss and like trying to hide something from me but if i pressure her she will think that i don't trust her haizzz. Got back home early and crash to bed. Tomorrow got birthday party aih cabai hate going birthday parties that im not so close to..... What to do. So it has been written and so it shall be done.... Will keep it update.