A love that will never be.

Its been awhile since my last blog, was to busy to online perhaps just lazy i guest. Last Sunday was our 1 year and 5 month anniversary together. I've never been so happy being with someone that i love more then my life, but.... to think of a certain things' about us makes me feel why i'm still clinging on.

There's this one incident that happen that make everything change, and i meant everything. I ask how does it feels to love someone so much but we can see that it end just like that and you still with that person loving each other so much. Before i use to dream of having a family of my own with the person that i love because she love me as much as i love her. But that was all before now its different, i see myself alone just with my parents no more wife nor kids. I know some will say its early for me to think about all this i hear it all the so just shut the fuck up.

Even though its early one day it will come, it still come no matter at what cause. I love this girl so much but i see there's not much hope on it. Now i just want to concentrate on my studies and focus on it to be success achieve my dream to be a Hotel Manager either with or without a soul mate. I care for you but not as before, i am letting you free to hang out with any guys you want i wont stop you like before, you can drink all you want party and everything, the more i care for you the more it hurts inside because when that day come i wont be with you it will just hurt me even more.

Dark Knight

One day in your life You'll remember a place Someone touching your face You'll come back and you'll look around, you'll . . .

One day in your life You'll remember the love you found here You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me now I will stay in your heart And when things fall apart You'll remember one day . . .

One day in your life When you find that you're always waiting For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there.

Sometimes i wonder, when i think back of our past you were so much understanding when you were my friend. But when i couple with you, you always think of no 1. YOU. I understand im your bf but sometimes i want to feel what is like my gf pays me a visit once in awhile. I understand you have your reason but im doing this for u and all i want is you understand me when i say i cant see you. But you wont, you get angry, upset and al the negative thing throw at me.

Have once you think of me, my safety, my energy, my time, and all the things im willing to do for you just to impress you, or is it something that you think a boyfriend must do and its his job to full fill his duty. Its that a boyfriend all about. Have you though about the hate that is given to me, have you ever though of that. You only things what makes you happy but not me.
When i cant see you, you start comparing between me and you friend. Think of the distance how fucking far my house to yours. HAVE YOU!!! i guess not rite all you think of YOU YOU YOU.
When i hang out with my friends you get angry but when you hang out with yours its ok. HAiz.

I Have nth else to say.

Im just a dark knight who hides in the shadows, calls out when needed and cast away when not.

A day out with my siS and member

Well lets leave all past behind us. Theres to much to talk about so lets jump to the present. hmmm today actualy was no plan of going out till my sis wanted to watch alvin and the rats(i didtn watch i was off to college to settle an unfinish bussines) me alvin and naz met up at OU and so we off to do our duty as fellows taylors student which was to find a parking space. UHH lucky got sialll if not gone baby gone. Got the form only la space not sure pun wahahhahah.

Anyway after that we pay our new college the lake side campus a visit. Woah i tell you its beautiful gila. It will take your life away, I MEAN IT. It is not even complete building stupid rocks or hammer might fall on our heads weiii. Note: we pay so high somore uhh. But still its cantik la.

After that off to OU lepak and makan nasi ayam bak kut teh. -_- ya rite haha nasi ayam sudah la. Kenyang giler then off to big apple makan mee. sedap mee dia

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NOTE: BIG APPLE SERVE DONUT NOT MEE!!

Well after dah makan apa lagi balik la hahahah well thts today much activity hahaha. Till tomorow.

Im back Baby

Yo yo whazzzzuuppPPpp. I'm back after a long absence. Well lets see what actually happen during my absence. I was off to langkawi for my industrial training for almost 3 long month, even though it was short but it was tough trust me haha. Besides training there were also fun activity we had and its hard to forget some memories we had there. Well be writing soon got some work to do. I'll be back i guess.

Our anniversary :)

Well its not today but i only able to go online today, weeeee. Its been one year now me and her, even we have bad ups and downs but we manage to pull it through, haha i dont even know how. But to think bout it its worth it.

Its was a nice day, we get to hang out and have a good dinner at T.G.I. hey its the though tht counts huhuhu. We had a romantic dinner together she look so preety and beautiful in that dress, plzz wear again soon when we go for dinner again k.....

I love you mel.

Tired of giving in!!!!

Thats it, if you want to be like this fine. I have bring down my ego to the max level and you still being like this fine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, say hello to MEGAT. you ask for it, i wont be hadi this time, i be Megat, yes the royalty ONE...

I been nice, i ask for your forgiveness and everything. The fact is you think im gonna sleep with another girl, wei, im better then that k. If you think im like that your wrong. I dont sleep around. Thats why you scared im going to langkawi because of this. Cant believe this, u are so closed minded. Gosh la.......

Nasty day

Today i screw my account and no only that, so does my relationship. I know its my fault because i did tn tell her the necessary things that i should. Im just scared that you get things wrong if i told you but things are worst when i didtn tell you anything and you have to find out for yourself in facebook.

I have no feelings for her at all, i only love you Mel. I understand if you wont trust me as much as before, and i dont mind if you dont want to tell me anything. Its my punishment, to you i will feel nothing, but the fact is i do. I m your bf how can i not, i know im full of dissapointment to you but i will never cheat on you. Its me to hang out with gurls even before we became a couple.

But i understand your feelings, theres nothing much i can say then i love you. But that will never be enough to cover for my mistakes. I m sorry melissa jane. I kneal down to you for forgiveness. I will always love you

Dont let yourself down, dont let your self go, your last chance have arrive.

Best, youve got to be the best, youve got to change the world, and use this chance to be heard,

your time is now.