i Never meant to

its been bad this pass day, on sat my car totally broke down and i have to chip in my own cash, but i dont mind cause somehow i feel proud of doing it because its my money repairing it. But the main thing is i hurt the one person that i actually love and i really dont mean too. I wish i didnt do does things that i did. I been stress with my report, its my final term and im depress. I want to express it out but you working, so i keep on building my frustration till i just explode. But its wrong of me because i know you need me more then i need you. But due to my failure controling my anger i just realease it all out. This was the side of me where i dont want you to experience with me but somehow faith want you to see it. I donno what to say but just that im sorry.

Safe behind these windows and these parapets of stone ( Ya Rite)
Gazing at the people outside me
All my life I watch them as I hide in here alone
Hungry for the histories they show me
All my life I memorize their faces
Knowing them as they will never know me
All my life I wonder how it feels to pass a day
Not hidden from them
But part of them

And out there
Living in the sun
Give me one day out there
All I ask is one To hold forever
Out there
Where they all live unawares What I'd give
What I'd dare Just to live one day out there

Out there among the millers and the weavers and their gf
Through the roofs and gables I can see them
Ev'ry day they shout and scold and go about their lives
Heedless of the gift it is to be them
If I was in their skin I'd treasure ev'ry instant

Out there
Strolling by the seine
Taste a morning out there
Like ordinary men
Who freely walk about there Just one day and then
I swear I'll be content
With my share
Won't resent
Won't despair
Old and bent
I won't care
I'll have spent
One day
Out there

J’ai longtemps parcouru son corps, Effleuré cents fois son visage, J’ai trouvé de l’or, Et même quelques étoiles en essuyant ses larmes, Et j'ai appris par coeur la pureté de ses formes Parfois je les dessine encore,
Elle fait partie de moi,

Je veux juste une dernière danse, Avant l’ombre et l’indifférence, Un vertige puis le silence, Je veux juste une dernière danse, Je l’ai connue trop tôt, Mais c’est pas de ma faute, La flèche a traversé ma peau, C’est une douleur qui se garde, Qui fait plus de bien que de mal, Mais je connais l’histoire, Il est déjà trop tard, Dans son regard, On peut apercevoir qu’elle se prépare, Au long voyage,

Je peux mourir demain, Ca ne change rien, J’ai reçu de ses mains, Le bonheur ancré dans mon âme, C’est même trop pour un seul homme, Et je l’ai vue partir sans rien dire, Il fallait seulement qu’elle respire, Merci d’avoir enchanté ma vie, Avant l’ombre et l’indifférence, Un vertige puis le silence, je veux juste une dernière danse.

What has life though me so far?? well perhaps for me it define on the type of song im listening to. There come a point where i cant fight this feeling anymore. I forgotten what i started fighting for. Who am i, what am i trying to actually prove? why i am doing it in the first place? when will the time be for me to really look my inner self? what will i do when i found my true self? and how will i face it when the time comes? For my strength is actually my weakness. Am i really ready when the time comes? only time, experience and moments will tell.

The reason

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with every day

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

That's why I need you to hear

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you

Its time for a drastic change.... A moment of boy to man

Feel of the heart

Yea i tell you something, I think you'll understand,

when i say that something, I want to hold your hand, For i want to hold your hand....

Owh plz say to me, you'll let me be your man,

and plz say to me, you'll let me hold your hand, now let me hold your hand, i want to hold your hand...

And when i touch you, i feel happy inside, its such a feeling that my love i cant hide, i cant hide.......

Yea you got that something, i think you understand,

when i feel that something, i want to hold your hand, I want to hold your hand, i want to hold your hand.....

Just let me hold your hand